Oh for god’s sake!
February 11, 2011 by Technominx · Leave a Comment
Right – had a good day. Met one of C’s ex’s and it went well. Did much domestic stuff – made food, made love. Just all as it should be and then just before C went down to work I called her G.
It’s not the first time it has happened. I hate it. I know it hurts her, so now I am sat upstairs unable to work because I feel all crap and worried and my mood has switched right back to where it was yesterday morning.
I feel so unstable at the moment. I’m swinging from high to low in seconds, and when I’m low all I want is to run away and hide.
I hate that i’ve hurt her and now I do’;t feel like I can make it better as I’m all weird again.
I can’t even just switch off and go to sleep which is what the low level depression is telling me to do as there is a band about to start.
Fuck.
